tummy rumbling....

My car is at Honda for a recall/oil change/realignment and Matt is out on a business lunch with some big wigs at Sure West so I’m spending my lunch break stranded and starving. Oh, and Honda is charging me $58 for the oil change. Wtf? Don’t I get some kind of warranty/free service for spending eighteen thousand bucks on a car at your stupid dealership? Retarded.

I’m going to drink several bottles of water until I’m not hungry anymore. -_- I’m sure I could bum a ride to lunch with my boss’ and their business lunch with our insurance agent but I kind of don’t feel like being politely interested in whatever boring business talk I’m sure will ensue. I didn’t have time to pack a lunch today.

Even though I’m in a considerably good mood today I kind of want to be alone.

I got an amazing 8 hours of sleep. I needed it. My tiredness was adding to the crankiness. Last night sucked. Four more years of socialism. Blah.

Currently my favorite band is Florence and the Machine. And I liked them before they got all popular, I’d like to point out. I say so because I’m listening to them right now and Pandora is irritating me by not magically knowing my favorite song.

So we are inviting any friends and family that are interested, to come with us to San Diego for Thanksgiving. Get away from the boring same ol same ol and soak up some salt water & sunshine.

I don’t eat mashed potatoes (or any potatoes for that matter) anymore, I’m sick of Turkey and stuffing is always dry. I’m kind of over the social pleasantries, as well. It seems very forced.

I am however, very introspective about what I am thankful for. Thanks to facebook and everyone saying what they are thankful for every day in November, I am reminded of the things I am thankful for. Grateful, actually. I think that is a better word. It implies a little more humble undeserving, and less than a reactionary emotion. I do feel undeserving. I was thinking about it last night while I was patiently counting to 10 before writing and erasing about 15 different status updates that were all incredibly …. Angry/rude towards the libs.

While I was thinking about all of the unemployed over-populating left wingers I know… And I had to take a moment to try to understand their “I deserve handouts” mentality, and why they are such fans of distribution of wealth. Besides the upper echelon of simply short-term utopian idealism that we should help everyone and everyone deserves help, I get that even in my small circle of family the demographic is widely very low income and near poverty line individuals.

I can’t relate, because I do not struggle financially the way they do. Granted, I haven’t gotten myself knocked up repeatedly out of wedlock and didn’t quit high school to raise a child, which are choices that insured a path of life for me which didn’t put me in that percentile of most likely to become impoverished. Nor did I choose to not work, ever. I have never asked for, felt deserving of, nor even needed government assistance. While I feel the overwhelming majority are simply bad life choice makers, lazy or have otherwise chosen not to be the captain of their life & fate, I’m sure there are some who genuinely believe they are deserving of tax payer assistance.

I do think I am undeserving of the lifestyle I have. I am definitely blessed. I work hard, sure, but I believe God has his hand on my life, and has helped me tremendously along the way.

… Matt vehemently disagrees with the mentality of being “Blessed”. He refuses to credit any sort of “luck” be it bad or good to a deity. He one hundred percent takes credit for all wrong doings and successes. And to take any of that away from him is possibly the most offensive thing he can think of, and he has no idea how anyone else can respect themselves for not providing for their own life, let alone a family.

But then, he is agnostic, I believe in God. (I have stopped saying I’m a Christian. I don’t want in any way to associated with that.) I digress.

So. Yea. Feeling a nation’s economic hurt and pain and need, I get where they are incoherently screaming from… and from that I realize I am grateful to be in a position where even as my country is being taken over by socialistic idealism, and I will be fiscally effected, I will continue to work, and I will always continue to be in the group of people who don’t suffer.

To my own work ethic, I am grateful today.

- hungry